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Sweet release is what I seek, but something I never seem to find. Many ways I've sought this peace, but end up out of my mind With fear, With regret, With hatred. Not only for myself, But for you, And them, And everyone. Try as I might, I never find the one thing That would release me. From this hold. From this hell. I am left alone to live as best I can. But what kind of a future is that? What sort of life will I lead if I despise life itself? With no one around me. And no one inside me. I am left to wait it out. How long will that wait be? I don't know.

Your lips on mine Your tongue so soft Your mouth so ravenous I feel like I'm being eaten alive. Hold me close Don't ever let go I can feel your heart beat As I lay on your chest. I don't feel anxious I don't feel scared I feel complete And whole for the first time. I look into your eyes As you enter me My body shudders And I convulse under you. I ride your rhythm Until you are satisfied And as you are about to cum I pull you closer to me. And after this What is left to be said? Nothing? Or so it seems. We dress silently And share one last, unpassionate kiss As you leave And I am left all alone.

Like a blind person who can see again, or new sounds to the deaf, so are the sensations you invoke in me. All strange at first, but develop and evolve until I am consumed by them. The initial goodwill and elation subsides, and my body craves another fix. I feel edgy and frustrated now as I rely on this new found 'freedom' to relieve all tension. What else can I do but sit and wait for a phone call.

Why When it hurts Do I continue To put myself In the same Fucking Situation? Why When it's obvious That he doesn't want me Do I keep going back Practically Begging For more? Why Do I Want him?

I'm struggling to breathe and my head is pounding Noise and light and colour sounding Like they are all inside my head at once. Sickly sweat pours from my brow At a temperature I wish I was now Cold and cool and all things ice.

for once in my life i thought i could start over again without feeling like trash thrown down by one and the next and the next but yet i am scattered here alone on the floor my regrets all around. And im wondering will you ever come back to me or will the tears in my eyes blind me from ever being next to you... and i cried so long just to wish i could have you back and u led me on telling me it might work that we might make this happen take another chance but then i saw your answer and i felt my heart smash and break apart from the inside twist deep in my soul hurt me and torture losing my self control as i cried o

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